Being Brave In The Cold7:00 PM
Usually I would like to believe I do not envy anyone. Well, except Beyonce & Gisele (it is unfair to have it all, no?). But other than that I am content with all I have. I am willing to work hard to accomplish what I want so there is no reason to envy ... Pretty much! But a quality I envy which some bloggers have and I feel I do not, is the power (luxury?) to express freely.
I used to be a loose canon in the starting. Blogging about whatever came to my mind without thinking twice. I never expected anyone would read my blog. But slowly that changed and even though I didn't want to, I started mincing my words and filtering what I share and when I share in this space. Especially because I have hundreds of relatives (I was gonna say millions but that would be height of exaggeration. I don't have that many relatives. At least I hope I don't!) following my blog and judging me on the basis of the mere-two-paragraphs (aka my awesome thoughts!) they read here ... in spite of not having met in years ... or even worse, have never met me in life but somehow found my blog.
I am not necessarily hiding something, or am afraid of them but since they know me in my personal life I feel it is an uneven exchange of information. This is where I wonder don't other bloggers ever have such problems? How do they manage to give such explicit access to people who are here just for masala (gossip) and not necessarily the content? Those are the bloggers whom I envy. Lucky buggers!